The whole reason for
studying the Dhamma, the teachings of the Buddha, is to search for a way to
transcend suffering and attain peace and happiness. Whether we study physical
or mental phenomena, the mind (citta) or its psychological factors (cetasikas),
it's only when we make liberation from suffering our ultimate goal that we're
on the right path: nothing less. Suffering has a cause and conditions for its
existence.
Please clearly understand
that when the mind is still, it's in its natural, normal state. As soon as the
mind moves, it becomes conditioned (sankhāra). When the mind is
attracted to something, it becomes conditioned. When aversion arises, it
becomes conditioned. The desire to move here and there arises from
conditioning. If our awareness doesn't keep pace with these mental
proliferations as they occur, the mind will chase after them and be conditioned
by them. Whenever the mind moves, at that moment, it becomes a conventional
reality.
So the Buddha taught us to
contemplate these wavering conditions of the mind. Whenever the mind moves, it
becomes unstable and impermanent (anicca), unsatisfactory (dukkha)
and cannot be taken as a self (anattā). These are the three universal
characteristics of all conditioned phenomena. The Buddha taught us to observe
and contemplate these movements of the mind.
It's likewise with the
teaching of dependent origination (paticca-samuppāda): deluded
understanding (avijjā) is the cause and condition for the arising of
volitional kammic formations (sankhāra); which is the cause and
condition for the arising of consciousness (viññāna); which is the cause
and condition for the arising of mentality and materiality (nāma-rūpa),
and so on, just as we've studied in the scriptures. The Buddha separated each
link of the chain to make it easier to study. This is an accurate description
of reality, but when this process actually occurs in real life the scholars
aren't able to keep up with what's happening. It's like falling from the top of
a tree to come crashing down to the ground below. We have no idea how many
branches we've passed on the way down. Similarly, when the mind is suddenly hit
by a mental impression, if it delights in it, then it flies off into a good
mood. It considers it good without being aware of the chain of conditions that
led there. The process takes place in accordance with what is outlined in the
theory, but simultaneously it goes beyond the limits of that theory.
There's nothing that
announces, ''This is delusion. These are volitional kammic formations, and that
is consciousness.'' The process doesn't give the scholars a chance to read out
the list as it's happening. Although the Buddha analyzed and explained the
sequence of mind moments in minute detail, to me it's more like falling out of
a tree. As we come crashing down there's no opportunity to estimate how many
feet and inches we've fallen. What we do know is that we've hit the ground with
a thud and it hurts!
The mind is the same. When
it falls for something, what we're aware of is the pain. Where has all this
suffering, pain, grief, and despair come from? It didn't come from theory in a
book. There isn't anywhere where the details of our suffering are written down.
Our pain won't correspond exactly with the theory, but the two travel along the
same road. So scholarship alone can't keep pace with the reality. That's why
the Buddha taught to cultivate clear knowing for ourselves. Whatever arises,
arises in this knowing. When that which knows, knows in accordance with the
truth, then the mind and its psychological factors are recognized as not ours.
Ultimately all these phenomena are to be discarded and thrown away as if they
were rubbish. We shouldn't cling to or give them any meaning.
Theory and Reality
The Buddha did not teach
about the mind and its psychological factors so that we'd get attached to the
concepts. His sole intention was that we would recognize them as impermanent,
unsatisfactory and not-self. Then let go. Lay them aside. Be aware and know
them as they arise. This mind has already been conditioned. It's been trained
and conditioned to turn away and spin out from a state of pure awareness. As it
spins it creates conditioned phenomena which further influence the mind, and
the proliferation carries on. The process gives birth to the good, the evil,
and everything else under the sun. The Buddha taught to abandon it all.
Initially, however, you have to familiarize yourself with the theory in order
that you'll be able to abandon it all at the later stage. This is a natural
process. The mind is just this way. Psychological factors are just this way.
Take the Noble Eightfold
Path, for example. When wisdom (paññā) views things correctly with
insight, this right view then leads to right intention, right speech, right
action, and so on. This all involves psychological conditions that have arisen
from that pure knowing awareness. This knowing is like a lantern shedding light
on the path ahead on a dark night. If the knowing is right, is in accordance
with truth, it will pervade and illuminate each of the other steps on the path
in turn.
Whatever we experience, it
all arises from within this knowing. If this mind did not exist, the knowing
would not exist either. All this is phenomena of the mind. As the Buddha said,
the mind is merely the mind. It's not a being, a person, a self, or yourself.
It's neither us nor them. The Dhamma is simply the Dhamma. It is a natural,
selfless process. It does not belong to us or anyone else. It's not any thing.
Whatever an individual experiences, it all falls within five fundamental
categories (khandhas): body, feeling, memory/ perception, thoughts and
consciousness. The Buddha said to let it all go.
Meditation is like a single
stick of wood. Insight (vipassanā) is one end of the stick and serenity
(samatha) the other. If we pick it up, does only one end come up or do
both? When anyone picks up a stick both ends rise together. Which part then is vipassanā, and which is samatha? Where does one end and the other begin? They are both the mind.
As the mind becomes peaceful, initially the peace will arise from the serenity
of samatha. We
focus and unify the mind in states of meditative peace (samādhi).
However, if the peace and stillness of samādhi fades away, suffering arises in its place. Why is that? Because
the peace afforded by samathameditation
alone is still based on attachment. This attachment can then be a cause of
suffering. Serenity is not the end of the path. The Buddha saw from his own
experience that such peace of mind was not the ultimate. The causes underlying
the process of existence (bhava) had not yet been brought to cessation (nirodha).
The conditions for rebirth still existed. His spiritual work had not yet
attained perfection. Why? Because there was still suffering. So based on that
serenity of samatha he proceeded to contemplate, investigate, and analyze the
conditioned nature of reality until he was free of all attachments, even the
attachment to serenity. Serenity is still part of the world of conditioned
existence and conventional reality. Clinging to this type of peace is clinging
to conventional reality, and as long as we cling, we will be mired in existence
and rebirth. Delighting in the peace of samatha still leads to further existence and rebirth. Once the mind's
restlessness and agitation calms down, one clings to the resultant peace.
So the Buddha examined the
causes and conditions underlying existence and rebirth. As long as he had not
yet fully penetrated the matter and understood the truth, he continued to probe
deeper and deeper with a peaceful mind, reflecting on how all things, peaceful
or not, come into existence. His investigation forged ahead until it was clear
to him that everything that comes into existence is like a lump of red-hot
iron. The five categories of a being's experience (khandhas) are all a
lump of red-hot iron. When a lump of iron is glowing red-hot, is there anywhere
it can be touched without getting burnt? Is there anywhere at all that is cool?
Try touching it on the top, the sides, or underneath. Is there a single spot
that can be found that's cool? Impossible. This searing lump of iron is entirely
red-hot. We can't even attach to serenity. If we identify with that peace,
assuming that there is someone who is calm and serene, this reinforces the
sense that there is an independent self or soul. This sense of self is part of
conventional reality. Thinking, "I'm peaceful", "I'm agitated", "I'mgood", "I'm bad", "I'm happy",
or "I'm unhappy", we are caught in more existence and birth. It's
more suffering. If our happiness vanishes, then we're unhappy instead. When our
sorrow vanishes, then we're happy again. Caught in this endless cycle, we
revolve repeatedly through heaven and hell.
Before his enlightenment,
the Buddha recognized this pattern in his own heart. He knew that the
conditions for existence and rebirth had not yet ceased. His work was not yet
finished. Focusing on life's conditionality, he contemplated in accordance with
nature: ''Due to this cause there is birth, due to birth there is death, and
all this movement of coming and going.'' So the Buddha took up these themes for
contemplation in order to understand the truth about the five khandhas. Everything mental and physical, everything conceived and thought
about, without exception, is conditioned. Once he knew this, he taught us to
set it down. Once he knew this, he taught to abandon it all. He encouraged
others to understand in accordance with this truth. If we don't, we'll suffer.
We won't be able to let go of these things. However, once we do see the truth
of the matter, we'll recognize how these things delude us. As the Buddha
taught, ''The mind has no substance, it's not any thing.''
The mind isn't born
belonging to anyone. It doesn't die as anyone's. This mind is free, brilliantly
radiant, and unentangled with any problems or issues. The reason problems arise
is because the mind is deluded by conditioned things, deluded by this
misperception of self. So the Buddha taught to observe this mind. In the
beginning what is there? There is truly nothing there. It doesn't arise with
conditioned things, and it doesn't die with them. When the mind encounters
something good, it doesn't change to become good. When the mind encounters
something bad, it doesn't become bad as well. That's how it is when there is
clear insight into one's nature. There is understanding that this is
essentially a substanceless state of affairs.
The Buddha's insight saw it
all as impermanent, unsatisfactory and not-self. He wants us to fully
comprehend in the same way. The knowing then knows in accordance with truth.
When it knows happiness or sorrow, it remains unmoved. The emotion of happiness
is a form of birth. The tendency to become sad is a form of death. When there's
death there is birth, and what is born has to die. That which arises and passes
away is caught in this unremitting cycle of becoming. Once the meditator's mind
comes to this state of understanding, no doubt remains about whether there is
further becoming and rebirth. There's no need to ask anyone else.
The Buddha comprehensively
investigated conditioned phenomena and so was able to let it all go. The five khandhas were let
go of, and the knowing carried on merely as an impartial observer of the
process. If he experienced something positive, he didn't become positive along
with it. He simply observed and remained aware. If he experienced something
negative, he didn't become negative. And why was that? Because his mind had
been cut free from such causes and conditions. He'd penetrated the Truth. The
conditions leading to rebirth no longer existed. This is the knowing that is
certain and reliable. This is a mind that is truly at peace. This is what is
not born, doesn't age, doesn't get sick, and doesn't die. This is neither cause
nor effect, nor dependent on cause and effect. It is independent of the process
of causal conditioning. The causes then cease with no conditioning remaining.
This mind is above and beyond birth and death, above and beyond happiness and
sorrow, above and beyond both good and evil. What can you say? It's beyond the
limitations of language to describe it. All supporting conditions have ceased
and any attempt to describe it will merely lead to attachment. The words used
then become the theory of the mind.
Theoretical descriptions of
the mind and its workings are accurate, but the Buddha realized that this type
of knowledge was relatively useless. We understand something intellectually and
then believe it, but it's of no real benefit. It doesn't lead to peace of mind.
The knowing of the Buddha leads to letting go. It results in abandoning and
renunciation. Because it's precisely this mind that leads us to get involved
with both what's right and what's wrong. If we're smart we get involved with
those things that are right. If we're stupid we get involved with those things
that are wrong. Such a mind is the world, and the Blessed One took the things
of this world to examine this very world. Having come to know the world as it
actually was, he was then known as the ''One who clearly comprehends the
world''.
Concerning this issue of samatha and vipassanā, the important thing is to
develop these states in our own hearts. Only when we genuinely cultivate them
ourselves will we know what they actually are. We can go and study what all the
books say about psychological factors of the mind, but that kind of
intellectual understanding is useless for actually cutting off selfish desire,
anger, and delusion. We only study the theory about selfish desire, anger, and
delusion, merely describing the various characteristics of these mental
defilements: ''Selfish desire has this meaning; anger means that; delusion is
defined as this.'' Only knowing their theoretical qualities, we can talk about
them only on that level. We know and we are intelligent, but when these
defilements actually appear in our minds, do they correspond with the theory or
not? When, for instance, we experience something undesirable do we react and
get into a bad mood? Do we attach? Can we let it go? If aversion comes up and
we recognize it, do we still hang on to it? Or once we have seen it, do we let
it go? If we find that we see something we don't like and retain that aversion
in our hearts, we'd better go back and start studying again. Because it's still
not right. The practice is not yet perfect. When it reaches perfection, letting
go happens. Look at it in this light.
We truly have to look deeply
into our own hearts if we want to experience the fruits of this practice.
Attempting to describe the psychology of the mind in terms of the numerous
separate moments of consciousness and their different characteristics is, in my
opinion, not taking the practice far enough. There's still a lot more to it. If
we are going to study these things, then know them absolutely, with clarity and
penetrative understanding. Without clarity of insight, how will we ever be
finished with them? There's no end to it. We'll never complete our studies.
Practising Dhamma is thus extremely important. When I practised, that's how I
studied. I didn't know anything about mind moments or psychological factors. I
just observed the quality of knowing. If a thought of hate arose, I asked
myself why. If a thought of love arose, I asked myself why. This is the way.
Whether it's labeled as a thought or called a psychological factor, so what?
Just penetrate this one point until you're able to resolve these feelings of
love and hate, until they completely vanish from the heart. When I was able to
stop loving and hating under any circumstance, I was able to transcend
suffering. Then it doesn't matter what happens, the heart and mind are released
and at ease. Nothing remains. It has all stopped.
Practise like this. If
people want to talk a lot about theory that's their business. But no matter how
much it's debated, the practice always comes down to this single point right
here. When something arises, it arises right here. Whether a lot or a little,
it originates right here. When it ceases, the cessation is right here. Where
else? The Buddha called this point the ''Knowing.'' When it knows the way
things are accurately, in line with the truth, we'll understand the meaning of
mind. Things incessantly deceive. As you study them, they're simultaneously
deceiving you. How else can I put it? Even though you know about them, you are
still being deluded by them precisely where you know them. That's the
situation. The issue is this: it's my opinion that the Buddha didn't intend
that we only know what these things are called. The aim of the Buddha's
teachings is to figure out the way to liberate ourselves from these things
through searching for the underlying causes.
Sīla, Samādhi, and Paññā
I practised Dhamma without
knowing a great deal. I just knew that the path to liberation began with virtue
(sīla3). Virtue is the beautiful beginning of
the Path. The deep peace of samādhi4 is the beautiful middle. Wisdom (paññā) is the beautiful
end. Although they can be separated as three unique aspects of the training, as
we look into them more and more deeply, these three qualities converge as one.
To uphold virtue, you have to be wise. We usually advise people to develop ethical
standards first by keeping the five precepts so that their virtue will become
solid. However, the perfection of virtue takes a lot of wisdom. We have to
consider our speech and actions, and analyze their consequences. This is all
the work of wisdom. We have to rely on our wisdom in order to cultivate virtue.
According to the theory,
virtue comes first, then samādhi and then wisdom, but when I examined it I found that wisdom is the
foundation stone for every other aspect of the practice. In order to fully
comprehend the consequences of what we say and do - especially the harmful
consequences - we need to use wisdom to guide and supervise, to scrutinize the
workings of cause and effect. This will purify our actions and speech. Once we
become familiar with ethical and unethical behavior, we see the place to
practice. We then abandon what's bad and cultivate what's good. We abandon
what's wrong and cultivate what's right. This is virtue. As we do this, the
heart becomes increasingly firm and steadfast. A steadfast and unwavering heart
is free of apprehension, remorse, and confusion concerning our actions and
speech. This is samādhi.
This stable unification of
mind forms a secondary and more powerful source of energy in our Dhamma
practice, allowing a deeper contemplation of the sights, sounds, etc., that we
experience. Once the mind is established with firm and unwavering mindfulness and
peace, we can engage in sustained inquiry into the reality of the body,
feeling, perception, thought, consciousness, sights, sounds, smells, tastes,
bodily sensations and objects of mind. As they continually arise, we
continually investigate with a sincere determination not to lose our
mindfulness. Then we'll know what these things actually are. They come into
existence following their own natural truth. As our understanding steadily
grows, wisdom is born. Once there's clear comprehension of the way things truly
are, our old perceptions are uprooted and our conceptual knowledge transforms
into wisdom. That's how virtue, samādhi and wisdom merge and function as one.
As wisdom increases in
strength and intrepidity, samādhi evolves to become increasingly firm. The more unshakeable samādhi is, the
more unshakeable and all-encompassing virtue becomes. As virtue is perfected,
it nurtures samādhi, and the
additional strengthening of samādhi leads to a maturing of wisdom. These three aspects of the training
mesh and intertwine. United, they form the Noble Eightfold Path, the way of the
Buddha. Once virtue, samādhi, and
wisdom reach their peak, this Path has the power to eradicate those things
which defile the mind's purity5. When sensual desire comes up, when
anger and delusion show their face, this Path is the only thing capable of
cutting them down in their tracks.
The framework for Dhamma
practice is the Four Noble Truths: suffering (dukkha), the origin of
suffering (samudaya), the cessation of suffering (nirodha) and
the Path leading to the cessation of suffering (magga). This Path
consists of virtue, samādhi and wisdom, the framework for training the heart. Their true
meaning is not to be found in these words but dwells in the depth of our
hearts. That's what virtue, samādhi and wisdom are like. They revolve continually. The Noble Eightfold
Path will envelop any sight, sound, smell, taste, bodily sensation, or object
of mind that arises. However, if the factors of the Eightfold Path are weak and
timid, the defilements will possess our minds. If the Noble Path is strong and
courageous, it will conquer and destroy the defilements. If it's the
defilements that are powerful and brave while the Path is feeble and frail, the
defilements will conquer the Path. They conquer our hearts. If the knowing
isn't quick and nimble enough as forms, feelings, perceptions, and thoughts are
experienced, they possess and devastate us. The Path and the defilements
proceed in tandem. As Dhamma practice develops in the heart, these two forces
have to battle it out every step of the way. It's like there are two people
arguing inside the mind, but it's just the Path of Dhamma and the defilements
struggling to win domination of the heart. The Path guides and fosters our
ability to contemplate. As long as we are able to contemplate accurately, the
defilements will be losing ground. But if we are shaky, whenever defilements
regroup and regain their strength, the Path will be routed as defilements take
its place. The two sides will continue to fight it out until eventually there
is a victor and the whole affair is settled.
If we focus our endeavor on
developing the way of Dhamma, defilements will be gradually and persistently
eradicated. Once fully cultivated, the Four Noble Truths reside in our hearts.
Whatever form suffering takes, it always exists due to a cause. That's the
Second Noble Truth. And what is the cause? Weak virtue. Weak samādhi. Weak wisdom. When the Path isn't durable, the defilements
dominate the mind. When they dominate, the Second Noble Truth comes into play,
and it gives rise to all sorts of suffering. Once we are suffering, those
qualities which are able to quell the suffering disappear. The conditions which
give rise to the Path are virtue, samādhi, and
wisdom. When they have attained full strength, the Path of Dhamma is
unstoppable, advancing uncessingly to overcome the attachment and clinging that
bring us so much anguish. Suffering can't arise because the Path is destroying
the defilements. It's at this point that cessation of suffering occurs. Why is
the Path able to bring about the cessation of suffering? Because virtue, samādhi, and wisdom are attaining their peak of perfection, and the Path
has gathered an unstoppable momentum. It all comes together right here. I would
say for anyone who practises like this, theoretical ideas about the mind don't
come into the picture. If the mind is liberated from these, then it is utterly
dependable and certain. Now whatever path it takes, we don't have to goad it
much to keep it going straight.
Consider the leaves of a
mango tree. What are they like? By examining just a single leaf we know. Even
if there are ten thousand of them we know what all those leaves are like. Just
look at one leaf. The others are essentially the same. Similarly with the trunk.
We only have to see the trunk of one mango tree to know the characteristics of
them all. Just look at one tree. All the other mango trees will be essentially
no different. Even if there were one hundred thousand of them, if I knew one
I'd know them all. This is what the Buddha taught.
Virtue, samādhi, and wisdom constitute the Path of the Buddha. But the way is not
the essence of the Dhamma. The Path isn't an end in itself, not the ultimate
aim of the Blessed One. But it's the way leading inwards. It's just like how
you traveled from Bangkok to my monastery, Wat Nong Pah Pong. It's not the road
you were after. What you wanted was to reach the monastery, but you needed the
road for the journey. The road you traveled on is not the monastery. It's just
the way to get here. But if you want to arrive at the monastery, you have to
follow the road. It's the same with virtue, samādhi, and
wisdom. We could say they are not the essence of the Dhamma, but they are the
road to arrive there. When virtue, samādhi, and wisdom
have been mastered, the result is profound peace of mind. That's the
destination. Once we've arrived at this peace, even if we hear a noise, the
mind remains unruffled. Once we've reached this peace, there's nothing
remaining to do. The Buddha taught to give it all up. Whatever happens, there's
nothing to worry about. Then we truly, unquestionably, know for ourselves. We
no longer simply believe what other people say.
The essential principle of
Buddhism is empty of any phenomena. It's not contingent upon miraculous
displays of psychic powers, paranormal abilities, or anything else mystical or
bizarre. The Buddha did not emphasize the importance of these things. Such
powers, however, do exist and may be possible to develop, but this facet of
Dhamma is deluding, so the Buddha did not advocate or encourage it. The only
people he praised were the ones who were able to liberate themselves from
suffering.
To accomplish this requires
training, and the tools and equipment to get the job done are generosity, virtue, samādhi, and wisdom. We have to take them up and train with them.
Together they form a Path inclining inwards, and wisdom is the first step. This
Path cannot mature if the mind is encrusted with defilements, but if we are
stout-hearted and strong, the Path will eliminate these impurities. However, if
it's the defilements that are stout-hearted and strong they will destroy the
Path. Dhamma practice simply involves these two forces battling it out
incessantly until the end of the road is reached. They engage in unremitting
battle until the very end.
The Dangers of Attachment
Using the tools of practice
entails hardship and arduous challenges. We rely on patience, endurance and
going without. We have to do it ourselves, experience it for ourselves, realize
it ourselves. Scholars, however, tend to get confused a lot. For example, when
they sit in meditation, as soon as their minds experience a teeny bit of
tranquility they start to think, ''Hey, this must be first jhāna6.'' This
is how their minds work. And once those thoughts arise the tranquility they'd
experienced is shattered. Soon they start to think that it must have been the
second jhâna they'd attained. Don't think and speculate about it. There aren't
any billboards which announce which level ofsamādhi we're experiencing. The reality is completely different. There
aren't any signs like the road signs that tell you, ''This way to Wat Nong Pah
Pong.'' That's not how I read the mind. It doesn't announce.
Although a number of highly
esteemed scholars have written descriptions of the first, second, third, and
fourth jhāna, what's
written is merely external information. If the mind actually enters these
states of profound peace, it doesn't know anything about those written
descriptions. It knows, but what it knows isn't the same as the theory we
study. If the scholars try to clutch their theory and drag it into their
meditation, sitting and pondering, ''Hmmm...what could this be? Is this first jhāna yet?''
There! The peace is shattered, and they don't experience anything of real
value. And why is that? Because there is desire, and once there's craving what
happens? The mind simultaneously withdraws out of the meditation. So it's
necessary for all of us to relinquish thinking and speculation. Abandon them
completely. Just take up the body, speech and mind and delve entirely into the
practice. Observe the workings of the mind, but don't lug the Dhamma books in
there with you. Otherwise everything becomes a big mess, because nothing in
those books corresponds precisely to the reality of the way things truly are.
People who study a lot, who
are full of theoretical knowledge, usually don't succeed in Dhamma practice.
They get bogged down at the information level. The truth is, the heart and mind
can't be measured by external standards. If the mind is getting peaceful, just
allow it to be peaceful. The most profound levels of deep peace do exist.
Personally, I didn't know much about the theory of practice. I'd been a monk
for three years and still had a lot of questions about what samādhi actually
was. I kept trying to think about it and figure it out as I meditated, but my
mind became even more restless and distracted than it had been before! The
amount of thinking actually increased. When I wasn't meditating it was more
peaceful. Boy, was it difficult, so exasperating! But even though I encountered
so many obstacles, I never threw in the towel. I just kept on doing it. When I
wasn't trying to do anything in particular, my mind was relatively at ease. But
whenever I determined to make the mind unify in samādhi, it went out of control. ''What's going on here,'' I wondered.
''Why is this happening?''
Later on I began to realize
that meditation was comparable to the process of breathing. If we're determined
to force the breath to be shallow, deep or just right, it's very difficult to
do. However, if we go for a stroll and we're not even aware of when we're
breathing in or out, it's extremely relaxing. So I reflected, ''Aha! Maybe
that's the way it works.'' When a person is normally walking around in the
course of the day, not focusing attention on their breath, does their breathing
cause them suffering? No, they just feel relaxed. But when I'd sit down and vow
with determination that I was going to make my mind peaceful, clinging and
attachment set in. When I tried to control the breath to be shallow or deep, it
just brought on more stress than I had before. Why? Because the willpower I was
using was tainted with clinging and attachment. I didn't know what was going
on. All that frustration and hardship was coming up because I was bringing
craving into the meditation.
Unshakeable Peace
I once stayed in a forest
monastery that was half a mile from a village. One night the villagers were
celebrating with a loud party as I was walking meditation. It must have been
after 11:00 and I was feeling a bit peculiar. I'd been feeling strange like
this since midday. My mind was quiet. There were hardly any thoughts. I felt
very relaxed and at ease. I did walking meditation until I was tired and then
went to sit in my grass-roofed hut. As I sat down I barely had time to cross my
legs before, amazingly, my mind just wanted to delve into a profound state of
peace. It happened all by itself. As soon as I sat down, the mind became truly
peaceful. It was rock solid. It wasn't as if I couldn't hear the noise of the
villagers singing and dancing - I still could - but I could also shut the sound
out entirely.
Strange. When I didn't pay
attention to the sound, it was perfectly quiet - didn't hear a thing. But if I
wanted to hear, I could, without it being a disturbance. It was like there were
two objects in my mind that were placed side by side but not touching. I could
see that the mind and it's object of awareness were separate and distinct, just
like this spittoon and water kettle here. Then I understood: when the mind
unifies in samādhi, if you
direct your attention outward you can hear, but if you let it dwell in its
emptiness then it's perfectly silent. When sound was perceived, I could see
that the knowing and the sound were distinctly different. I contemplated: ''If
this isn't the way it is, how else could it be?'' That's the way it was. These
two things were totally separate. I continued on investigating like this until
my understanding deepened even further: ''Ah, this is important. When the
perceived continuity of phenomena is cut, the result is peace.'' The previous
illusion of continuity (santati) transformed into peace of mind (santi).
So I continued to sit, putting effort into the meditation. The mind at that time
was focused solely on the meditation, indifferent to everything else. Had I
stopped meditating at this point it would have been merely because it was
complete. I could have taken it easy, but it wouldn't have been because of
laziness, tiredness, or feeling annoyed. Not at all. These were absent from the
heart. There was only perfect inner balance and equipoise - just right.
Eventually I did take a
break, but it was only the posture of sitting that changed. My heart remained
constant, unwavering and unflagging. I pulled a pillow over, intending to take
a rest. As I reclined, the mind remained just as peaceful as it had been
before. Then, just before my head hit the pillow, the mind's awareness began
flowing inwards, I didn't know where it was headed, but it kept flowing deeper
and deeper within. It was like a current of electricity flowing down a cable to
a switch. When it hit the switch my body exploded with a deafening bang. The
knowing during that time was extremely lucid and subtle. Once past that point
the mind was released to penetrate deeply inside. It went inside to the point
where there wasn't anything at all. Absolutely nothing from the outside world
could come into that place. Nothing at all could reach it. Having dwelt
internally for some time, the mind then retreated to flow back out. However,
when I say it retreated, I don't mean to imply that I made it flow back out. I
was simply an observer, only knowing and witnessing. The mind came out more and
more until it finally returned to normal.
Once my normal state of
consciousness returned, the question arose, ''What was that?!'' The answer came
immediately, ''These things happen of their own accord. You don't have to
search for an explanation.'' This answer was enough to satisfy my mind.
After a short time my mind
again began flowing inwards. I wasn't making any conscious effort to direct the
mind. It took off by itself. As it moved deeper and deeper inside, it again hit
that same switch. This time my body shattered into the most minute particles and
fragments. Again the mind was released to penetrate deeply inside itself. Utter
silence. It was even more profound than the first time. Absolutely nothing
external could reach it. The mind abided here for some time, for as long as it
wished, and then retreated to flow outwards. At that time it was following its
own momentum and happening all by itself. I wasn't influencing or directing my
mind to be in any particular way, to flow inwards or retreat outwards. I was
merely the one knowing and watching.
My mind again returned to
its normal state of consciousness, and I didn't wonder or speculate about what
was happening. As I meditated, the mind once again inclined inwards. This time
the entire cosmos shattered and disintegrated into minute particles. The earth,
ground, mountains, fields and forests - the whole world - disintegrated into
the space element. People had vanished. Everything had disappeared. On this
third time absolutely nothing remained.
The mind, having inclined
inwards, settled down there for as long as it wished. I can't say I understand
exactly how it remained there. It's difficult to describe what happened.
There's nothing I can compare it to. No simile is apt. This time the mind
remained inside far longer than it had previously, and only after some time did
it come out of that state. When I say it came out, I don't mean to imply that I
made it come out or that I was controlling what was happening. The mind did it
all by itself. I was merely an observer. Eventually it again returned to its normal
state of consciousness. How could you put a name on what happened during these
three times? Who knows? What term are you going to use to label it?
The Power of Samādhi
Everything I've been
relating to you concerns the mind following the way of nature. This was no
theoretical description of the mind or of psychological states. There's no need
for that. When there's faith or confidence, you get in there and really do it.
Not just playing around, you put your life on the line. And when your practice
reaches the stage that I've been describing, afterwards the whole world is
turned upside down. Your understanding of reality is completely different. Your
view is utterly transformed. If someone saw you at that moment, they might
think you were insane. If this experience happened to someone who didn't have a
thorough grip on themselves, they might actually go crazy, because nothing is
the same as it was before. The people of the world appear differently than they
used to. But you're the only one who sees this. Absolutely everything changes.
Your thoughts are transmuted: other people now think in one way, while you
think in another. They speak about things in one way, while you speak in
another. They're descending one path while you're climbing another. You're no longer
the same as other human beings. This way of experiencing things doesn't
deteriorate. It persists and carries on. Give it a try. If it really is as I
describe, you won't have to go searching very far. Just look into your own
heart. This heart is staunchly courageous, unshakably bold. This is the heart's
power, it's source of strength and energy. The heart has this potential
strength. This is the power and force of samādhi.
At this point it's still
just the power and purity that the mind derives from samādhi. This level of samādhi is samādhi at its ultimate. The mind has attained the summit of samādhi; it's not mere momentary concentration. If you were to switch to vipassanāmeditation at this point,
the contemplation would be uninterrupted and insightful. Or you could take that
focused energy and use it in other ways. From this point on you could develop
psychic powers, perform miraculous feats or use it anyway you wanted. Ascetics
and hermits have used samādhienergy
for making holy water, talismans or casting spells. These things are all
possible at this stage, and may be of some benefit in their own way; but it's
like the benefit of alcohol. You drink it and then you get drunk.
This level of samādhi is a rest
stop. The Buddha stopped and rested here. It forms the foundation for
contemplation andvipassanā. However, it's not necessary to have such
profoundsamādhi as this
in order to observe the conditions around us, so keep on steadily contemplating
the process of cause and effect. To do this we focus the peace and clarity of
our minds to analyze the sights, sounds, smells, tastes, physical sensations,
thoughts, and mental states we experience. Examine moods and emotions, whether
positive or negative, happy or unhappy. Examine everything. It's just like someone
else has climbed up a mango tree and is shaking down the fruit while we wait
underneath to gather them up. The ones which are rotten, we don't pick up. Just
gather the good mangoes. It's not exhausting, because we don't have to climb up
the tree. We simply wait underneath to reap the fruit.
Do you get the meaning of
this simile? Everything experienced with a peaceful mind confers greater
understanding. No longer do we create proliferating interpretations around what
is experienced. Wealth, fame, blame, praise, happiness, and unhappiness come of
their own accord. And we're at peace. We're wise. It's actually fun. It becomes
fun to sift through and sort out these things. What other people call good,
bad, evil, here, there, happiness, unhappiness, or whatever - it all gets taken
in for our own profit. Someone else has climbed up the mango tree and is
shaking the branches to make the mangoes fall down to us. We simply enjoy
ourselves gathering the fruit without fear. What's there to be afraid of
anyway? It's someone else who's shaking the mangoes down to us. Wealth, fame,
praise, criticism, happiness, unhappiness, and all the rest are no more than
mangoes falling down, and we examine them with a serene heart. Then we'll know
which ones are good and which are rotten.
Working in Accord with
Nature
When we begin to wield the
peace and serenity we've been developing in meditation to contemplate these
things, wisdom arises. This is what I call wisdom. This is vipassanā. It's not something
fabricated and construed. If we're wise, vipassanā will develop naturally. We don't have to label what's happening.
If there's only a little clarity of insight, we call this ''little vipassanā.'' When clear seeing
increases a bit, we call that ''moderatevipassanā.'' If knowing is fully
in accordance with the Truth, we call that ''ultimate vipassanā.'' Personally I prefer to
use the word wisdom (paññā) rather than ''vipassanā.'' If we think we are
going to sit down from time to time and practise ''vipassanā meditation,''
we're going to have a very difficult time of it. Insight has to proceed from
peace and tranquility. The entire process will happen naturally of its own
accord. We can't force it.
The Buddha taught that this
process matures at its own rate. Having reached this level of practice, we
allow it to develop according to our innate capabilities, spiritual aptitude
and the merit we've accumulated in the past. But we never stop putting effort
into the practice. Whether the progress is swift or slow is out of our control.
It's just like planting a tree. The tree knows how fast it should grow. If we
want it to grow more quickly than it is, this is pure delusion. If we want it
to grow more slowly, recognize this as delusion as well. If we do the work, the
results will be forthcoming - just like planting a tree. For example, say we
wanted to plant a chilli bush. Our responsibility is to dig a hole, plant the
seedling, water it, fertilize it and protect it from insects. This is our job,
our end of the bargain. This is where faith then comes in. Whether the chilli
plant grows or not is up to it. It's not our business. We can't go tugging on
the plant, trying to stretch it and make it grow faster. That's not how nature
works. Our responsibility is to water and fertilize it. Practising Dhamma in
the same way puts our hearts at ease.
If we realize enlightenment
in this lifetime, that's fine. If we have to wait until our next life, no
matter. We have faith and unfaltering conviction in the Dhamma. Whether we
progress quickly or slowly is up to our innate capabilities, spiritual
aptitude, and the merit we've accumulated so far. Practising like this puts the
heart at ease. It's like we're riding in a horse cart. We don't put the cart
before the horse. Or it's like trying to plow a rice paddy while walking in
front of our water buffalo rather than behind. What I'm saying here is that the
mind is getting ahead of itself. It's impatient to get quick results. That's
not the way to do it. Don't walk in front of your water buffalo. You have to
walk behind the water buffalo.
It's just like that chilli
plant we are nurturing. Give it water and fertilizer, and it will do the job of
absorbing the nutrients. When ants or termites come to infest it, we chase them
away. Doing just this much is enough for the chilli to grow beautifully on its
own, and once it is growing beautifully, don't try to force it to flower when
we think it should flower. It's none of our business. It will just create
useless suffering. Allow it to bloom on its own. And once the flowers do bloom
don't demand that it immediately produce chilli peppers. Don't rely on
coercion. That really causes suffering! Once we figure this out, we understand
what our responsibilities are and are not. Each has their specific duty to
fulfill. The mind knows its role in the work to be done. If the mind doesn't
understand its role, it will try to force the chilli plant to produce peppers
on the very day we plant it. The mind will insist that it grow, flower, and
produce peppers all in one day.
This is nothing but the
second Noble Truth: craving causes suffering to arise. If we are aware of this
Truth and ponder it, we'll understand that trying to force results in our
Dhamma practice is pure delusion. It's wrong. Understanding how it works, we
let go and allow things to mature according to our innate capabilities,
spiritual aptitude and the merit we've accumulated. We keep doing our part.
Don't worry that it might take a long time. Even if it takes a hundred or a
thousand lifetimes to get enlightened, so what? However many lifetimes it takes
we just keep practicing with a heart at ease, comfortable with our pace. Once
our mind has entered the stream, there's nothing to fear. It will have gone
beyond even the smallest evil action. The Buddha said that the mind of a sotāpanna, someone who has attained
the first stage of enlightenment, has entered the stream of Dhamma that flows
to enlightenment. These people will never again have to experience the grim
lower realms of existence, never again fall into hell. How could they possibly
fall into hell when their minds have abandoned evil? They've seen the danger in
making bad kamma. Even if you tried to force them to do or say something evil,
they would be incapable of it, so there's no chance of ever again descending
into hell or the lower realms of existence. Their minds are flowing with the
current of Dhamma.
Once you're in the stream,
you know what your responsibilities are. You comprehend the work ahead. You
understand how to practise Dhamma. You know when to strive hard and when to
relax. You comprehend your body and mind, this physical and mental process, and
you renounce the things that should be renounced, continually abandoning
without a shred of doubt.
Changing our Vision
In my life of practising
Dhamma, I didn't attempt to master a wide range of subjects. Just one. I
refined this heart. Say we look at a body. If we find that we're attracted to a
body then analyze it. Have a good look: head hair, body hair, nails, teeth and
skin7. The Buddha taught us to thoroughly
and repeatedly contemplate these parts of the body. Visualize them separately,
pull them apart, peel off the skin and burn them up. This is how to do it.
Stick with this meditation until it's firmly established and unwavering. See
everyone the same. For example, when the monks and novices go into the village
on alms round in the morning, whoever they see - whether it's another monk or a
villager - they imagine him or her as a dead body, a walking corpse staggering
along on the road ahead of them. Remain focused on this perception. This is how
to put forth effort. It leads to maturity and development. When you see a young
woman whom you find attractive, imagine her as a walking corpse, her body
putrid and reeking from decomposition. See everyone like that. And don't let
them get too close! Don't allow the infatuation to persist in your heart. If
you perceive others as putrid and reeking, I can assure you the infatuation
won't persist. Contemplate until you're sure about what you're seeing, until
it's definite, until you're proficient. Whatever path you then wander down you
won't go astray. Put your whole heart into it. Whenever you see someone it's no
different than looking at a corpse. Whether male or female, look at that person
as a dead body. And don't forget to see yourself as a dead body. Eventually
this is all that's left. Try to develop this way of seeing as thoroughly as you
can. Train with it until it increasingly becomes part and parcel of your mind.
I promise it's great fun - if you actually do it. But if you are preoccupied
with reading about it in books, you'll have a difficult time of it. You've got
to do it. And do it with utmost sincerity. Do it until this meditation becomes
a part of you. Make realization of truth your aim. If you're motivated by the
desire to transcend suffering, then you'll be on the right path.
These days there are many
people teaching vipassanā and a wide range of meditation techniques. I'll say this: doing vipassanā is not
easy. We can't just jump straight into it. It won't work if it's not proceeding
from a high standard of morality. Find out for yourself. Moral discipline and
training precepts are necessary, because if our behavior, actions and speech
aren't impeccable we'll never be able to stand on our own two feet. Meditation
without virtue is like trying to skip over an essential section of the Path.
Similarly, occasionally you hear people say, ''You don't need to develop
tranquillity. Skip over it and go straight into the insight meditation of vipassanā.'' Sloppy people who like
to cut corners say things like this. They say you don't have to bother with
moral discipline. Upholding and refining your virtue is challenging, not just
playing around. If we could skip over all the teachings on ethical behavior,
we'd have it pretty easy, wouldn't we? Whenever we'd encounter a difficulty, we
just avoid it by skipping over it. Of course, we'd all like to skip over the
difficult bits.
There was once a monk I met
who told me he was a real meditator. He asked for permission to stay with me
here and inquired about the schedule and standard of monastic discipline. I
explained to him that in this monastery we live according to the Vinaya, the
Buddha's code of monastic discipline, and if he wanted to come and train with
me he'd have to renounce his money and private supplies of goods. He told me
his practice was ''non-attachment to all conventions.'' I told him I didn't
know what he was talking about. ''How about if I stay here,'' he asked, ''and
keep all my money but don't attach to it. Money's just a convention.'' I said
sure, no problem. ''If you can eat salt and not find it salty, then you can use
money and not be attached it.'' He was just speaking gibberish. Actually he was
just too lazy to follow the details of the Vinaya. I'm telling you, it's
difficult. ''When you can eat salt and honestly assure me it's not salty, then
I'll take you seriously. And if you tell me it's not salty then I'll give you a
whole sack to eat. Just try it. Will it really not taste salty? Non-attachment
to conventions isn't just a matter of clever speech. If you're going to talk
like this, you can't stay with me.'' So he left.
We have to try and maintain
the practice of virtue. Monastics should train by experimenting with the
ascetic practices8, while lay people practising at home
should keep the five precepts9. Attempt to attain impeccability in
everything said and done. We should cultivate goodness to the best of our
ability, and keep on gradually doing it.
When starting to cultivate
the serenity of samatha meditation, don't make the mistake of trying once or twice and
then giving up because the mind is not peaceful. That's not the right way. You
have to cultivate meditation over a long period of time. Why does it have to
take so long? Think about it. How many years have we allowed our minds to
wander astray? How many years have we not been doing samatha meditation?
Whenever the mind has ordered us to follow it down a particular path, we've
rushed after it. To calm that wandering mind, to bring it to a stop, to make it
still, a couple of months of meditation won't be enough. Consider this.
When we undertake to train
the mind to be at peace with every situation, please understand that in the
beginning when a defiled emotion comes up, the mind won't be peaceful. It's
going to be distracted and out of control. Why? Because there's craving. We
don't want our mind to think. We don't want to experience any distracting moods
or emotions. Not wanting is craving, the craving for non-existence. The more we
crave not to experience certain things, the more we invite and usher them in.
''I don't want these things, so why do they keep coming to me? I wish it wasn't
this way, so why is it this way?'' There we go! We crave for things to exist in
a particular way, because we don't understand our own mind. It can take an
incredibly long time before we realize that playing around with these things is
a mistake. Finally, when we consider it clearly we see, ''Oh, these things come
because I call them.''
Craving not to experience
something, craving to be at peace, craving not to be distracted and agitated -
it's all craving. It's all a red-hot chunk of iron. But never mind. Just get on
with the practice. Whenever we experience a mood or emotion, examine it in
terms of its impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, and selfless qualities, and toss
it into one of these three categories. Then reflect and investigate: these
defiled emotions are almost always accompanied by excessive thinking. Wherever
a mood leads, thinking straggles along behind. Thinking and wisdom are two very
different things. Thinking merely reacts to and follows our moods, and they
carry on with no end in sight. But if wisdom is operating, it will bring the
mind to stillness. The mind stops and doesn't go anywhere. There's simply
knowing and acknowledging what's being experienced: when this emotion comes,
the mind's like this; when that mood comes, it's like that. We sustain the
''knowing.'' Eventually it occurs to us, ''Hey, all this thinking, this aimless
mental chatter, this worrying and judging - it's all insubstantial nonsense.
It's all impermanent, unsatisfactory and not me or mine.'' Toss it into one of
these three all-encompassing categories, and quell the uprising. You cut it off
at its source. Later when we again sit meditation, it will come up again. Keep
a close watch on it. Spy on it.
It's just like raising
water buffalos. You've got the farmer, some rice plants, and the water buffalo.
Now the water buffalo, it wants to eat those rice plants. Rice plants are what
water buffalos like to eat, right? Your mind is a water buffalo. Defiled
emotions are like the rice plants. The knowing is the farmer. Dhamma practice
is just like this. No different. Compare it for yourself. When tending a water
buffalo, what do you do? You release it, allowing it to wander freely, but you
keep a close eye on it. If it strays too close to the rice plants, you yell
out. When the buffalo hears, it backs away. But don't be inattentive, oblivious
to what the buffalo is doing. If you've got a stubborn water buffalo that won't
heed your warning, take a stick and give it a stout whack on the backside. Then
it won't dare go near the rice plants. But don't get caught taking a siesta. If
you lie down and doze off, those rice plants will be history. Dhamma practice
is the same: you watch over your mind; the knowing tends the mind.
''Those people who keep a
close watch over their minds will be liberated from Māra's10 snare.''
And yet this knowing mind is also the mind, so who's the one observing the
mind? Such ideas can make you extremely confused. The mind is one thing, the
knowing another; and yet the knowing originates in this very same mind. What
does it mean to know the mind? What's it like to encounter moods and emotions?
What's it like to be without any defiled emotions whatsoever? That which knows
what these things are is what is meant by the ''knowing.'' The knowing
observantly follows the mind, and it's from this knowing that wisdom is born.
The mind is that which thinks and gets entangled in emotions, one after another
- precisely like our water buffalo. Whatever directions it strays in, maintain
a watchful eye. How could it get away? If it mosies over to the rice plants,
yell out. If it won't listen, pick up a stick and stride over to it. ''whack!''
This is how you frustrate it's craving.
Training the mind is no
different. When the mind experiences an emotion and instantly grabs it, it's
the job of the knowing to teach. Examine the mood to see if it's good or bad.
Explain to the mind how cause and effect functions. And when it again grabs
onto something that it thinks is adorable, the knowing has to again teach the
mind, again explain cause and effect, until the mind is able to cast that thing
aside. This leads to peace of mind. After finding out that whatever it grabs
and grasps is inherently undesirable, the mind simply stops. It can't be
bothered with those things anymore, because it's come under a constant barrage
of rebukes and reprimands. Thwart the craving of the mind with determination.
Challenge it to its core, until the teachings penetrate to the heart. That's
how you train the mind.
Since the time when I
withdrew to the forest to practise meditation, I've been practising like this.
When I train my disciples, I train them to practise like this. Because I want
them to see the truth, rather than just read what's in the scriptures; I want
them to see if their hearts have been liberated from conceptual thinking. When
liberation occurs, you know; and when liberation has not yet happened, then
contemplate the process of how one thing causes and leads to another.
Contemplate until you know and understand it through and through. Once it's
been penetrated with insight, it will fall away on its own. When something
comes your way and gets stuck, then investigate. Don't give up until it has
released it's grip. Repeatedly investigate right here. Personally, this is how
I approached the training, because the Buddha taught that you have to know for
yourself. All sages know the truth for themselves. You've got to discover it in
the depths of your own heart. Know yourself.
If you are confident in
what you know and trust yourself, you will feel relaxed whether others
criticize or praise you. Whatever other people say, you're at ease. Why?
Because you know yourself. If someone bolsters you with praise, but you're not
actually worthy of it, are you really going to believe them? Of course not. You
just carry on with your Dhamma practice. When people who aren't confident in
what they know get praised by others, they get sucked into believing it and it
warps their perception. Likewise when someone criticizes you, take a look at
and examine yourself. ''No, what they say isn't true. They accuse me of being
wrong, but actually I'm not. Their accusation isn't valid.'' If that's the
case, what would be the point of getting angry with them? Their words aren't
true. If, however, we are at fault just as they accuse, then their criticism is
correct. If that's the case, what would be the point of getting angry with
them? When you're able to think like this, life is truly untroubled and
comfortable. Nothing that then happens is wrong. Then everything is Dhamma.
That how I practised.
Following the Middle Path
It's the shortest and most
direct path. You can come and argue with me on points of Dhamma, but I won't
join in. Rather than argue back, I'd just offer some reflections for you to
consider. Please understand what the Buddha taught: let go of everything. Let
go with knowing and awareness. Without knowing and awareness, the letting go is
no different than that of cows and water buffaloes. Without putting your heart
into it, the letting go isn't correct. You let go because you understand
conventional reality. This is non-attachment. The Buddha taught that in the
beginning stages of Dhamma practice you should work very hard, develop things
thoroughly and attach a lot. Attach to the Buddha. Attach to the Dhamma. Attach
to the Sangha. Attach firmly and deeply. That's what the Buddha taught. Attach
with sincerity and persistence and hold on tight.
In my own search I tried
nearly every possible means of contemplation. I sacrificed my life for the
Dhamma, because I had faith in the reality of enlightenment and the Path to get
there. These things actually do exist, just like the Buddha said they did. But
to realize them takes practice, right practice. It takes pushing yourself to
the limit. It takes the courage to train, to reflect, and to fundamentally
change. It takes the courage to actually do what it takes. And how do you do
it? Train the heart. The thoughts in our heads tell us to go in one direction,
but the Buddha tells us to go in another. Why is it necessary to train? Because
the heart is totally encrusted with and plastered over with defilements. That's
what a heart is like that has not yet been transformed through the training.
It's unreliable, so don't believe it. It's not yet virtuous. How can we trust a
heart that lacks purity and clarity? Therefore the Buddha warned us not to put
our trust in a defiled heart. Initially the heart is only the hired hand of
defilement, but if they associate together for an extended period of time, the
heart perverts to become defilement itself. That's why the Buddha taught us not
to trust our hearts.
If we take a good look at
our monastic training discipline, we'll see that the whole thing is about
training the heart. And whenever we train the heart we feel hot and bothered.
As soon as we're hot and bothered we start to complain, ''Boy, this practice is
incredibly difficult! It's impossible.'' But the Buddha didn't think like that.
He considered that when the training was causing us heat and friction, that
meant we were on the right track. We don't think that way. We think it's a sign
that something is wrong. This misunderstanding is what makes the practice seem
so arduous. In the beginning we feel hot and bothered, so we think we're off
track. Everyone wants to feel good, but they're less concerned about whether
it's right or not. When we go against the grain of the defilements and
challenge our cravings, of course we feel suffering. We get hot, upset, and
bothered and then quit. We think we're on the wrong path. The Buddha, however,
would say we're getting it right. We're confronting our defilements, and they
are what is getting hot and bothered. But we think it's us who are hot and
bothered. The Buddha taught that it's the defilements that get stirred up and
upset. It's the same for everyone.
That's why Dhamma practice
is so demanding. People don't examine things clearly. Generally, they lose the
Path on either the side of self-indulgence or self-torment. They get stuck in
these two extremes. On one hand they like to indulge their heart's desires.
Whatever they feel like doing they just do it. They like to sit in comfort.
They love to lie down and stretch out in comfort. Whatever they do, they seek
to do it in comfort. This is what I mean by self-indulgence: clinging to
feeling good. With such indulgence how could Dhamma practice possibly progress?
If we can no longer indulge
in comfort, sensuality and feeling good, we become irritated. We get upset and
angry and suffer because of it. This is falling off the Path on the side of
self-torment. This is not the path of a peaceful sage, not the way of someone
who's still. The Buddha warned not to stray down these two sidetracks of
self-indulgence and self-torment. When experiencing pleasure, just know that
with awareness. When experiencing anger, ill-will, and irritation, understand
that you are not following in the footsteps of the Buddha. Those aren't the
paths of people seeking peace, but the roads of common villagers. A monk at
peace doesn't walk down those roads. He strides straight down the middle with
self-indulgence on the left and self-torment on the right. This is correct
Dhamma practice.
If you're going to take up
this monastic training, you have to walk this Middle Way, not getting worked up
about either happiness or unhappiness. Set them down. But it feels like they're
kicking us around. First they kick us from one side, ''Ow!'' , then they kick
us from the other, ''Ow!'' We feel like the clapper in our wooden bell, knocked
back and forth from side to side. The Middle Way is all about letting go of
happiness and unhappiness, and the right practice is the practice in the
middle. When the craving for happiness hits and we don't satisfy it, we feel
the pain.
Walking down the Middle
Path of the Buddha is arduous and challenging. There are just these two
extremes of good and bad. If we believe what they tell us, we have to follow
their orders. If we become enraged at someone, we immediately go searching for
a stick to attack them. No patient endurance. If we love someone we want to
caress them from head to toe. Am I right? These two sidetracks completely miss
the middle. This is not what the Buddha recommended. His teaching was to
gradually put these things down. His practice was a path leading out of
existence, away from rebirth - a path free of becoming, birth, happiness,
unhappiness, good, and evil.
Those people who crave
existence are blind to what's in the middle. They fall off the Path on the side
of happiness and then completely pass over the middle on their way to the other
side of dissatisfaction and irritation. They continually skip over the center.
This sacred place is invisible to them as they rush back and forth. They don't
stay in that place where there is no existence and no birth. They don't like
it, so they don't stay. Either they go down out of their home and get bitten by
a dog or fly up to get pecked by a vulture. This is existence.
Humanity is blind to that
which is free from existence with no rebirth. The human heart is blind to it,
so it repeatedly passes it by and skips it over. The Middle Way walked by the
Buddha, the Path of correct Dhamma practice, transcends existence and rebirth.
The mind that is beyond both the wholesome and the unwholesome is released.
This is the path of a peaceful sage. If we don't walk it we'll never be a sage
at peace. That peace will never have a chance to bloom. Why? Because of
existence and rebirth. Because there's birth and death. The path of the Buddha
is without birth or death. There's no low and no high. There's no happiness and
no suffering. There's no good and no evil. This is the straight path. This is
the path of peace and stillness. It's peacefully free of pleasure and pain,
happiness and sorrow. This is how to practise Dhamma. Experiencing this, the
mind can stop. It can stop asking questions. There's no longer any need to
search for answers. There! That's why the Buddha said that the Dhamma is
something that the wise know directly for themselves. No need to ask anybody.
We understand clearly for ourselves without a shred of doubt that things are
exactly as the Buddha said they were.
Dedication to the Practice
So I've told you a few
brief stories about how I practised. I didn't have a lot of knowledge. I didn't
study much. What I did study was this heart and mind of mine, and I learned in
a natural way through experimentation, trial and error. When I liked something,
then I examined what was going on and where it would lead. Inevitably, it would
drag me to some distant suffering. My practice was to observe myself. As
understanding and insight deepened, gradually I came to know myself.
Practise with unflinching
dedication! If you want to practise Dhamma, then please try not to think too
much. If you're meditating and you find yourself trying to force specific
results, then it's better to stop. When your mind settles down to become
peaceful and then you think, ''That's it! That's it, isn't it? Is this it?'',
then stop. Take all your analytical and theoretical knowledge, wrap it up and
store it away in a chest. And don't drag it out for discussion or to teach.
That's not the type of knowledge that penetrates inside. They are different
types of knowledge.
When the reality of
something is seen, it's not the same as the written descriptions. For example,
let's say we write down the word ''sensual desire.'' When sensual desire
actually overwhelms the heart, it's impossible that the written word can convey
the same meaning as the reality. It's the same with ''anger.'' We can write the
letters on a blackboard, but when we're actually angry the experience is not
the same. We can't read those letters fast enough, and the heart is engulfed by
rage.
This is an extremely
important point. The theoretical teachings are accurate, but it's essential to
bring them into our hearts. It must be internalized. If the Dhamma isn't
brought into the heart, it's not truly known. It's not actually seen. I was no
different. I didn't study extensively, but I did do enough to pass some of the
exams on Buddhist theory. One day I had the opportunity to listen to a Dhamma talk
from a meditation master. As I listened, some disrespectful thoughts came up. I
didn't know how to listen to a real Dhamma talk. I couldn't figure out what
this wandering meditation monk was talking about. He was teaching as though it
was coming from his own direct experience, as if he was after the truth.
As time went on and I
gained some firsthand experience in the practice, I saw for myself the truth of
what that monk taught. I understood how to understand. Insight then followed in
its wake. Dhamma was taking root in my own heart and mind. It was a long, long
time before I realized that everything that that wandering monk had taught came
from what he'd seen for himself. The Dhamma he taught came directly from his
own experience, not from a book. He spoke according to his understanding and
insight. When I walked the Path myself, I came across every detail he'd
described and had to admit he was right. So I continued on.
Try to take every
opportunity you can to put effort into Dhamma practice. Whether it's peaceful
or not, don't worry about it at this point. The highest priority is to set the
wheels of practice in motion and create the causes for future liberation. If
you've done the work, there's no need to worry about the results. Don't be
anxious that you won't gain results. Anxiety is not peaceful. If however, you
don't do the work, how can you expect results? How can you ever hope to see?
It's the one who searches who discovers. It's the one who eats who's full.
Everything around us lies to us. Recognizing this even ten times is still
pretty good. But the same old coot keeps telling us the same old lies and
stories. If we know he's lying, it's not so bad, but it can be an exceedingly
long time before we know. The old fellow comes and tries to hoodwink us with
deception time and time again.
Practising Dhamma means
upholding virtue, developing samādhiand
cultivating wisdom in our hearts. Remember and reflect on the Triple Gem: the
Buddha, the Dhamma and the Sangha. Abandon absolutely everything without exception.
Our own actions are the causes and conditions that will ripen in this very
life. So strive on with sincerity.
Even if we have to sit in a
chair to meditate, it's still possible to focus our attention. In the beginning
we don't have to focus on many things - just our breath. If we prefer, we can
mentally repeat the word ''Buddha'', ''Dhamma'', or ''Sangha'' in conjunction
with each breath. While focusing attention, resolve not to control the breath.
If breathing seems laborious or uncomfortable, this indicates we're not
approaching it right. As long as we're not yet at ease with the breath, it will
seem too shallow or too deep, too subtle or too rough. However, once we relax
with our breath, finding it pleasant and comfortable, clearly aware of each inhalation
and exhalation, then we're getting the hang of it. If we're not doing it
properly we will lose the breath. If this happens then it's better to stop for
a moment and refocus the mindfulness.
If while meditating you get
the urge to experience psychic phenomena or the mind becomes luminous and
radiant or you have visions of celestial palaces, etc., there's no need to
fear. Simply be aware of whatever you're experiencing, and continue on
meditating. Occasionally, after some time, the breath may appear to slow to a
halt. The sensation of the breath seems to vanish and you become alarmed. Don't
worry, there's nothing to be afraid of. You only think your breathing has
stopped. Actually the breath is still there, but it's functioning on a much
more subtle level than usual. With time the breath will return to normal by
itself.
In the beginning, just
concentrate on making the mind calm and peaceful. Whether sitting in a chair,
riding in a car, taking a boat ride, or wherever you happen to be, you should
be proficient enough in your meditation that you can enter a state of peace at
will. When you get on a train and sit down, quickly bring your mind to a state
of peace. Wherever you are, you can always sit. This level of proficiency
indicates that you're becoming familiar with the Path. You then investigate.
Utilize the power of this peaceful mind to investigate what you experience. At
times it's what you see; at times what you hear, smell, taste, feel with your
body, or think and feel in your heart. Whatever sensory experience presents
itself - like it or not - take that up for contemplation. Simply know what you
are experiencing. Don't project meaning or interpretations onto those objects
of sense awareness. If it's good, just know that it's good. If it's bad, just
know that it's bad. This is conventional reality. Good or evil, it's all
impermanent, unsatisfying and not-self. It's all undependable. None of it is
worthy of being grasped or clung to. If you can maintain this practice of peace
and inquiry, wisdom will automatically be generated. Everything sensed and
experienced then falls into these three pits of impermanence,
unsatisfactoriness, and not-self. This is vipassanā meditation. The mind is already peaceful, and whenever impure
states of mind surface, throw them away into one of these three rubbish pits.
This is the essence of vipassanā:
discarding everything down into impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, and not-self.
Good, bad, horrible, or whatever, toss it down. In a short time, understanding
and insight will blossom forth in the midst of the three universal
characteristics - feeble insight, that is. At this beginning stage the wisdom
is still weak and feeble, but try to maintain this practice with consistency.
It's difficult to put into words, but it's like if somebody wanted to get to
know me, they'd have to come and live here. Eventually with daily contact we
would get to know each other.
Respect the Tradition
It's high time we started
to meditate. Meditate to understand, to abandon, to relinquish, and to be at
peace.
I used to be a wandering
monk. I'd travel by foot to visit teachers and seek solitude. I didn't go
around giving Dhamma talks. I went to listen to the Dhamma talks of the great
Buddhist masters of the time. I didn't go to teach them. I listened to whatever
advice they had to offer. Even when young or junior monks tried to tell me what
the Dhamma was, I listened patiently. However, I rarely got into discussions
about the Dhamma. I couldn't see the point in getting involved in lengthy
discussions. Whatever teachings I accepted I took on board straight away,
directly where they pointed to renunciation and letting go. What I did, I did
for renunciation and letting go. We don't have to become experts in the
scriptures. We're getting older with every day that passes, and every day we
pounce on a mirage, missing the real thing. Practising the Dhamma is something
quite different than studying it.
I don't criticize any of
the wide variety of meditation styles and techniques. As long as we understand
their true purpose and meaning, they're not wrong. However, calling ourselves
Buddhist meditators, but not strictly following the monastic code of discipline
(Vinaya) will, in my opinion, never meet with success. Why? Because we try to
bypass a vital section of the Path. Skipping over virtue, samādhi or wisdom
won't work. Some people may tell you not to get attached to the serenity of samathameditation: ''Don't bother with samatha; advance
straight to the wisdom and insight practices of vipassanā.'' As I see it, if we
attempt to detour straight to vipassanā, we'll
find it impossible to successfully complete the journey.
Don't forsake the style of
practice and meditation techniques of the eminent Forest Masters, such as the
Venerable Ajahns Sao, Mun, Taungrut, and Upali. The path they taught is utterly
reliable and true - if we do it the way they did. If we follow in their
footsteps, we'll gain true insight into ourselves. Ajahn Sao cared for his
virtue impeccably. He didn't say we should bypass it. If these great masters of
the Forest Tradition recommended practising meditation and monastic etiquette
in a particular way, then out of deep respect for them we should follow what
they taught. If they said to do it, then do it. If they said to stop because
it's wrong, then stop. We do it out of faith. We do it with unwavering
sincerity and determination. We do it until we see the Dhamma in our own
hearts, until we are the Dhamma. This is what the Forest Masters taught. Their
disciples consequently developed profound respect, awe and affection for them,
because it was through following their path, that they saw what their teachers
saw.
Give it a try. Do it just
like I say. If you actually do it, you'll see the Dhamma, be the Dhamma. If you
actually undertake the search, what would stop you? The defilements of the mind
will be vanquished if you approach them with the right strategy: be someone who
renounces, one who is frugal with words, who is content with little, and who
abandons all views and opinions stemming from self-importance and conceit. You
will then be able to patiently listen to anyone, even if what they're saying is
wrong. You will also be able to patiently listen to people when they're right.
Examine yourself in this way. I assure you, it's possible, if you try. Scholars
however, rarely come and put the Dhamma into practice. There are some, but they
are few. It's a shame. The fact that you've made it this far and have come to
visit is already worthy of praise. It shows inner strength. Some monasteries
only encourage studying. The monks study and study, on and on, with no end in
sight, and never cut that which needs to be cut. They only study the word
''peace.'' But if you can stop still, then you'll discover something of real
value. This is how you do research. This research is truly valuable and
completely immobile. It goes straight to what you've been reading about. If
scholars don't practise meditation however, their knowledge has little
understanding. Once they put the teachings into practice, those things which
they have studied about, then become vivid and clear.
So start practising!
Develop this type of understanding. Give living in the forest a try and come
stay in one of these tiny huts. Trying out this training for a while and
testing it for yourself would be of far greater value than just reading books.
Then you can have discussions with yourself. While observing the mind it's as
if it lets go and rests in its natural state. When it ripples and wavers from
this still, natural state in the form of thoughts and concepts, the
conditioning process of sankhāra is set in motion. Be very careful and keep a watchful eye on this
process of conditioning. Once it moves and is dislodged from this natural
state, Dhamma practice is no longer on the right track. It steps off into
either self-indulgence or self-torment. Right there. That's what gives rise to
this web of mental conditioning. If the state of mind is a good one, this
creates positive conditioning. If it's bad, the conditioning is negative. These
originate in your own mind.
I'm telling you, it's great
fun to closely observe how the mind works. I could happily talk about this one
subject the whole day. When you get to know the ways of the mind, you'll see
how this process functions and how it's kept going through being brainwashed by
the mind's impurities. I see the mind as merely a single point. Psychological
states are guests who come to visit this spot. Sometimes this person comes to
call; sometimes that person pays a visit. They come to the visitor center. Train
the mind to watch and know them all with the eyes of alert awareness. This is
how you care for your heart and mind. Whenever a visitor approaches you wave
them away. If you forbid them to enter, where are they going to sit down?
There's only one seat, and you're sitting in it. Spend the whole day in this
one spot.
This is the Buddha's firm
and unshakeable awareness; that watches over and protects the mind. You're
sitting right here. Since the moment you emerged from the womb, every visitor
that's ever come to call has arrived right here. No matter how often they come,
they always come to this same spot, right here. Knowing them all, the Buddha's
awareness sits alone, firm and unshakeable. Those visitors journey here seeking
to exert influence, to condition and sway your mind in various ways. When they
succeed in getting the mind entangled in their issues, psychological states
arise. Whatever the issue is, wherever it seems to be leading, just forget it -
it doesn't matter. Simply know who the guests are as they arrive. Once they've
dropped by they will find that there's only one chair, and as long as you're
occupying it they will have no place to sit down. They come thinking to fill
your ear with gossip, but this time there's no room for them to sit. Next time
they come there will also be no chair free. No matter how many times these
chattering visitors show up, they always meet the same fellow sitting in the
same spot. You haven't budged from that chair. How long do you think they will
continue to put up with this situation? In just speaking to them you get to
know them thoroughly. Everyone and everything you've ever known since you began
to experience the world will come for a visit. Simply observing and being aware
right here is enough to see the Dhamma entirely. You discuss, observe and
contemplate by yourself.
This is how to discuss
Dhamma. I don't know how to talk about anything else. I can continue on
speaking in this fashion, but in the end it's nothing but talking and
listening. I'd recommend you actually go and do the practice.
Mastering the Meditation
If you have a look for
yourself, you'll encounter certain experiences. There's a Path to guide you and
offer directions. As you carry on, the situation changes and you have to adjust
your approach to remedy the problems that come up. It can be a long time before
you see a clear signpost. If you're going to walk the same Path as I did, the
journey definitely has to take place in your own heart. If not, you'll
encounter numerous obstacles.
It's just like hearing a
sound. The hearing is one thing, the sound another, and we are consciously
aware of both without compounding the event. We rely on nature to provide the
raw material for the investigation in search of Truth. Eventually the mind
dissects and separates phenomena on it's own. Simply put, the mind doesn't get
involved. When the ears pick up a sound, observe what happens in the heart and
mind. Do they get bound up, entangled, and carried away by it? Do they get
irritated? At least know this much. When a sound then registers, it won't
disturb the mind. Being here, we take up those things close at hand rather than
those far away. Even if we'd like to flee from sound, there's no escape. The
only escape possible is through training the mind to be unwavering in the face
of sound. Set sound down. The sounds we let go of, we can still hear. We hear
but we let sound go, because we've already set it down. It's not that we have
to forcefully separate the hearing and the sound. It separates automatically
due to abandoning and letting go. Even if we then wanted to cling to a sound,
the mind wouldn't cling. Because once we understand the true nature of sights,
sounds, smells, tastes, and all the rest, and the heart sees with clear
insight, everything sensed without exception falls within the domain of the
universal characteristics of impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, and not-self.
Anytime we hear a sound
it's understood in terms of these universal characteristics. Whenever there's
sense contact with the ear, we hear but it's as if we didn't hear. This doesn't
mean the mind no longer functions. Mindfulness and the mind intertwine and
merge to monitor each other at all times without a lapse. When the mind is
trained to this level, no matter what path we then choose to walk we will be
doing research. We will be cultivating the analysis of phenomena, one of the
essential factors of enlightenment, and this analysis will keep rolling on with
its own momentum.
Discuss Dhamma with
yourself. Unravel and release feeling, memory, perception, thinking,
intentions, and consciousness. Nothing will be able to touch them as they
continue to perform their functions on their own. For people who have mastered
their minds, this process of reflection and investigation flows along
automatically. It's no longer necessary to direct it intentionally. Whatever
sphere the mind inclines towards, the contemplation is immediately adept.
If Dhamma practice reaches
this level, there's another interesting side benefit. While asleep: snoring,
talking in our sleep, gnashing our teeth, and tossing and turning will all
stop. Even if we've been resting in deep sleep, when we wake up we won't be
drowsy. We'll feel energized and alert as if we'd been awake the whole time. I
used to snore, but once the mind remained awake at all times, snoring stopped.
How can you snore when you're awake? It's only the body that stops and sleeps.
The mind is wide awake day and night, around the clock. This is the pure and
heightened awareness of the Buddha: the One Who Knows, the Awakened One, the
Joyous One, the Brilliantly Radiant One. This clear awareness never sleeps. Its
energy is self-sustaining, and it never gets dull or sleepy. At this stage we
can go without rest for two or three days. When the body begins to show signs
of exhaustion, we sit down to meditate and immediately enter deep samādhi for five
or ten minutes. When we come out of that state, we feel fresh and invigorated
as if we've had a full night's sleep. If we're beyond concern for the body,
sleep is of minimal importance. We take appropriate measures to care for the
body, but we aren't anxious about its physical condition. Let it follow its
natural laws. We don't have to tell the body what to do. It tells itself. It's
as if someone is prodding us, urging us to strive on in our efforts. Even if we
feel lazy, there's a voice inside that constantly rouses our diligence.
Stagnation at this point is impossible, because effort and progress have
gathered an unstoppable momentum. Please check this out for yourself. You've
been studying and learning a long time. Now it's time to study and learn about
yourself.
In the beginning stages of
Dhamma practice, physical seclusion is of vital importance. When you live alone
in isolation you will recall the words of Venerable Sāriputta: ''Physical seclusion is a
cause and condition for the arising of mental seclusion, states of profound samādhi free from
external sense contact. This seclusion of the mind is in turn a cause and
condition for seclusion from mental defilements, enlightenment.'' And yet some
people still say that seclusion is not important: ''If your heart is peaceful,
it doesn't matter where you are.'' It's true, but in the beginning stages we
should remember that physical seclusion in a suitable environment comes first.
Today or sometime soon, seek out a lonely cremation ground in a remote forest
far from any habitation. Experiment with living all alone. Or seek out a
fear-inspiring mountain peak. Go live alone, Okay ? You'll have lots of fun all
night long. Only then will you know for yourself. Even I once thought that
physical seclusion wasn't particularly important. That's what I thought, but
once I actually got out there and did it, I reflected on what the Buddha
taught. The Blessed One encouraged his disciples to practise in remote
locations far removed from society. In the beginning this builds a foundation
for internal seclusion of the mind which then supports the unshakeable
seclusion from defilements.
For example, say you're a
lay person with a home and a family. What seclusion do you get? When you return
home, as soon as you step inside the front door you get hit with chaos and
complication. There's no physical seclusion. So you slip away for a retreat in
a remote environment and the atmosphere is completely different. It's necessary
to comprehend the importance of physical isolation and solitude in the initial
stages of Dhamma practice. You then seek out a meditation master for
instruction. He or she guides, advises and points out those areas where your
understanding is wrong, because it's precisely where you misunderstand that you
think you are right. Right where you're wrong, you're sure you're right. Once
the teacher explains, you understand what is wrong, and right where the teacher
says you're wrong is precisely where you thought you were right.
From what I've heard, there
are a number of Buddhist scholar monks who search and research in accordance
with the scriptures . There's no reason why we shouldn't experiment. When it's
time to open our books and study, we learn in that style. But when it's time to
take up arms and engage in combat, we have to fight in a style that may not
correspond with the theory. If a warrior enters battle and fights according to
what he's read, he'll be no match for his opponent. When the warrior is sincere
and the fight is real, he has to battle in a style that goes beyond theory.
That's how it is. The Buddha's words in the scriptures are only guidelines and
examples to follow, and studying can sometimes lead to carelessness.
The way of the Forest
Masters is the way of renunciation. On this Path there's only abandoning. We
uproot views stemming from self-importance. We uproot the very essence of our
sense of self. I assure you, this practice will challenge you to the core, but
no matter how difficult it is don't discard the Forest Masters and their
teachings. Without proper guidance the mind and samādhi are
potentially very deluding. Things which shouldn't be possible begin to happen.
I've always approached such phenomena with caution and care. When I was a young
monk, just starting out in practice during my first few years, I couldn't yet
trust my mind. However, once I'd gained considerable experience and could fully
trust the workings of my mind, nothing could pose a problem. Even if unusual
phenomena manifested, I'd just leave it at that. If we are clued in to how
these things work, they cease by themselves. It's all fuel for wisdom. As time
goes on we find ourselves completely at ease.
In meditation, things which
usually aren't wrong can be wrong. For example, we sit down cross-legged with
determination and resolve: ''Alright! No pussy-footing around this time. I will
concentrate the mind. Just watch me.'' No way that approach will work!
Everytime I tried that my meditation got nowhere. But we love the bravado. From
what I've observed, meditation will develop at its own rate. Many evenings as I
sat down to meditate I thought to myself, ''Alright! Tonight I won't budge from
this spot until at least 1:00 am.'' Even with this thought I was already making
some bad kamma, because it wasn't long before the pain in my body attacked from
all sides, overwhelming me until it felt like I was going to die. However,
those occasions when the meditation went well, were times when I didn't place
any limits on the sitting. I didn't set a goal of 7:00, 8:00, 9:00 or whatever,
but simply kept sitting, steadily carrying on, letting go with equanimity.
Don't force the meditation. Don't attempt to interpret what's happening. Don't
coerce your heart with unrealistic demands that it enter a state of samādhi - or else
you'll find it even more agitated and unpredictable than normal. Just allow the
heart and mind to relax, comfortable and at ease.
Allow the breathing to flow
easily at just the right pace, neither too short nor too long. Don't try to
make it into anything special. Let the body relax, comfortable and at ease.
Then keep doing it. Your mind will ask you, ''How late are we going to meditate
tonight? What time are we going to quit?'' It incessantly nags, so you have to
bellow out a reprimand, ''Listen buddy, just leave me alone.'' This busybody
questioner needs to be regularly subdued, because it's nothing other than
defilement coming to annoy you. Don't pay it any mind whatsoever. You have to
be tough with it. ''Whether I call it quits early or have a late night, it's
none of your damn business! If I want to sit all night, it doesn't make any
difference to anyone, so why do you come and stick your nose into my
meditation?'' You have to cut the nosy fellow off like that. You can then carry
on meditating for as long as you wish, according to what feels right.
As you allow the mind to
relax and be at ease, it becomes peaceful. Experiencing this, you'll recognize
and appreciate the power of clinging. When you can sit on and on, for a very
long time, going past midnight, comfortable and relaxed, you'll know you're
getting the hang of meditation. You'll understand how attachment and clinging
really do defile the mind.
When some people sit down
to meditate they light a stick of incense in front of them and vow, ''I won't
get up until this stick of incense has burned down.'' Then they sit. After what
seems like an hour they open their eyes and realize only five minutes have gone
by. They stare at the incense, disappointed at how exceedingly long the stick
still is. They close their eyes again and continue. Soon their eyes are open
once more to check that stick of incense. These people don't get anywhere in
meditation. Don't do it like that. Just sitting and dreaming about that stick
of incense, ''I wonder if it's almost finished burning,'' the meditation gets
nowhere. Don't give importance to such things. The mind doesn't have to do
anything special.
If we are going to
undertake the task of developing the mind in meditation, don't let the
defilement of craving know the ground rules or the goal. ''How will you
meditate, Venerable?'', it inquires. ''How much will you do? How late are you
thinking of going?'' Craving keeps pestering until we submit to an agreement.
Once we declare we're going to sit until midnight, it immediately begins to
hassle us. Before even an hour has passed we're feeling so restless and
impatient that we can't continue. Then more hindrances attack as we berate
ourselves, ''Hopeless! What, is sitting going to kill you? You said you were
going to make your mind unshakeable in samādhi, but
it's still unreliable and all over the place. You made a vow and you didn't
keep it.'' Thoughts of self-depreciation and dejection assail our minds, and we
sink into self-hatred. There's no one else to blame or get angry at, and that
makes it all the worse. Once we make a vow we have to keep it. We either
fulfill it or die in the process. If we do vow to sit for a certain length of
time, then we shouldn't break that vow and stop. In the meantime however, just
gradually practise and develop. There's no need for making dramatic vows. Try
to steadily and persistently train the mind. Occasionally, the meditation will
be peaceful, and all the aches and discomfort in the body will vanish. The pain
in the ankles and knees will cease by itself.
Once we try our hand at
cultivating meditation, if strange images, visions or sensory perceptions start
coming up, the first thing to do is to check our state of mind. Don't discard
this basic principle. For such images to arise the mind has to be relatively
peaceful. Don't crave for them to appear, and don't crave for them not to
appear. If they do arise then examine them, but don't allow them to delude.
Just remember they're not ours. They are impermanent, unsatisfying and not-self
just like everything else. Even if they are real, don't dwell on or pay much
attention to them. If they stubbornly refuse to fade, then refocus your
awareness on your breath with increased vigor. Take at least three long, deep
breaths and each time slowly exhale completely. This may do the trick. Keep
re-focusing the attention.
Don't become possessive of
such phenomena. They are nothing more than what they are, and what they are is
potentially deluding. Either we like them and fall in love with them or the
mind becomes poisoned with fear. They're unreliable: they may not be true or
what they appear to be. If you experience them, don't try to interpret their
meaning or project meaning onto them. Remember they're not ours, so don't run
after these visions or sensations. Instead, immediately go back and check the
present state of mind. This is our rule of thumb. If we abandon this basic
principle and become drawn into what we believe we are seeing, we can forget
ourselves and start babbling or even go insane. We may lose our marbles to the
point where we can't even relate to other people on a normal level. Place your
trust in your own heart. Whatever happens, simply carry on observing the heart
and mind. Strange meditative experiences can be beneficial for people with
wisdom, but dangerous for those without. Whatever occurs don't become elated or
alarmed. If experiences happen, they happen.
Another way to approach
Dhamma practice is to contemplate and examine everything we see, do, and
experience. Never discard the meditation. When some people finish sitting or
walking meditation they think it's time to stop and rest. They stop focusing
their minds on their object of meditation or theme of contemplation. They
completely drop it. Don't practise like that. Whatever you see, inquire into
what it really is. Contemplate the good people in the world. Contemplate the
evil ones too. Take a penetrating look at the rich and powerful; the destitute
and poverty-stricken. When you see a child, an elderly person or a young man or
woman, investigate the meaning of age. Everything is fuel for inquiry. This is
how you cultivate the mind.
The contemplation that
leads to the Dhamma is the contemplation of conditionality, the process of
cause and effect, in all its various manifestations: both major and minor,
black and white, good and bad. In short, everything. When you think, recognize
it as a thought and contemplate that it's merely that, nothing more. All these
things wind up in the graveyard of impermanence, unsatisfactoriness and
not-self, so don't possessively cling to any of them. This is the cremation
ground of all phenomena. Bury and cremate them in order to experience the
Truth.
Having insight into
impermanence means not allowing ourselves to suffer. It's a matter of
investigating with wisdom. For example, we obtain something we consider good or
pleasurable, and so we're happy. Take a close and sustained look at this goodness
and pleasure. Sometimes after having it for a long time we get fed up with it.
We want to give it away or sell it. If there's nobody who wants to buy it,
we're ready to throw it away. Why? What are the reasons underlying this
dynamic? Everything is impermanent, inconstant, and changing, that's why. If we
can't sell it or even throw it away, we start to suffer. This entire issue is
just like that, and once one incident is fully understood, no matter how many
more similar situations arise, they are all understood to be just the same.
That's simply the way things are. As the saying goes, ''If you've seen one,
you've seen them all.''
Occasionally we see things
we don't like. At times we hear annoying or unpleasant noises and get
irritated. Examine this and remember it. Because some time in the future we
might like those noises. We might actually delight in those very same things we
once detested. It's possible! Then it occurs to us with clarity and insight,
''Aha! All things are impermanent, unable to fully satisfy, and not-self.''
Throw them into the mass grave of these universal characteristics. The clinging
to the likeable things we get, have, and are, will then cease. We come to see
everything as essentially the same. Everything we then experience generates
insight into the Dhamma.
Everything I've said so far
is simply for you to listen to and think about. It's just talk, that's all.
When people come to see me, I speak. These sorts of subjects aren't the things
we should sit around and gab about for hours. Just do it. Get in
there and do it. It's like when we call a friend to go somewhere. We invite
them. We get an answer. Then we're off, without a big fuss. We say just the
right amount and leave it at that. I can tell you a thing or two about
meditation, because I've done the work. But you know, maybe I'm wrong. Your job
is to investigate and find out for yourself if what I say is true.
Footnotes
The
following Dhamma talk was informally given to a visiting scholar monk who had
come to pay respects to Venerable Ajahn Chah.
This same
Dhamma talk by Ajahn Chah was formerly printed as a different translation under
the title 'The Key to Liberation'.
Sīla is a broad term whose meaning includes living an ethical life,
following moral precepts, and behaving in a restrained manner that does not
harm others or oneself. In this translation, it will be rendered as 'virtue.'
Samādhi - the focused energy of the mind in meditative concentration.
Kilesa - defilements; mental qualities that defile, poison or stain the
heart; sensual or selfish desire, anger, delusion, and any unwholesome state of
mind based on them.
Jhāna - profound unification of mind in meditation. The pinnacle of samādhi. The Buddha taught eight distinct levels.
Kesā, Lomā, Nakhā, Dantā, Taco;
contemplation of these five bodily parts constitutes the first meditation
technique taught to a newly ordained monk or nun by their preceptor.
Dhutanga: ascetic
practices recommended by the Buddha as a 'means of shaking off defilements'.
They include 13 strict observances which aid in the cultivation of contentment,
renunciation and energetic effort.
five
precepts: the five basic guidelines for training oneself in wholesome
actions of body and speech: refraining from killing other beings; refraining
from stealing; responsible sexual conduct; refraining from lying, sowing
discord, harsh speech and frivolous chatter; refraining from taking intoxicants.
Māra: The
Buddhist personification of the forces antagonistic to enlightenment.
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